Examining My Flaws

There has been something that I have always wanted to do. A high honor in my mind. And there was a mid-range probability that it would finally come to fruition this coming September. But as It seems, my pride is getting in the way. Yes, it is important to spread the Gospel of Jesus. Furthering His Kingdom is priority.

But the Holy Spirit has made it known to me that I was not seeking this honor for the Kingdom. I was seeking it for myself. For my own personal wants. And until I can answer the invitation, I will never be able to ask for the request.

“One’s pride will bring him low, but he who is lowly in spirit will obtain honor.” (Proverbs 29:23)

There was that song by Audio Adrenaline. Get down. I shared it sometime ago.

Lavishly our lives are wasted,
Humbleness is left untasted.
You can’t live your life to please yourself, yeah.
That’s a tip from my mistakes,
Exactly what it doesn’t take.
To win, you’ve got to come in last place.
To live your life you’ve got to lose it,
And all the losers get a crown

All I need’s another day
Where I can’t seem to get away.
From the many things that drag me down.
I’m sure you’ve had a day like me,
Where nothing seems to set you free.
From the burdens you can’t carry all alone.

In your weakness He is stronger.
In your darkness He shines through.
When you’re crying He’s your comfort.
When you’re all alone He’s carrying you.

And it is with these thoughts that I will be releasing my grip on the steering wheel. I will ride shotgun, as Jesus takes the driver’s seat.

So it is with a heavy heart that I come to grips with my shortcomings and my flaws, I would venture a guess and say there are not a whole lot of people how enjoy looking at their imperfections.